blabber

i don’t even know what i’m gonna write and what are my purposes of starting this whole thing,
plus we both know i suck in arranging words and creating some sweet romantic Shakespearian kinda stuff,
but let me try.
let me try to transform this blank sheets of paper into something you’d love to cherish and remember.

— i. before i knew you

i have never even dreamt of experiencing such selfless love,
heck, i didn’t even believe it exists in the first place.
now look at me. the happiest person alive because i have you.

our thing wasn’t something as impulsive as love at the first sight,
it’s more like the familiarity that found its kind.
i found you in places where i never looked for you.
i found you in a long dreary night and i wish for you on the falling stars and gleaming moon.
i found you in darkness and i whisper your name to the void.
i don’t remember what we talked about,
but you were laughing and i was laughing,
and somehow,
it sounded like happiness.
eventually, the invisible string that has been tying us all along is pulling us up to each other.

— ii. to be my own knight

we used to be such miserable souls.
my heart was once dead from the agony,
but now that you’re here,
it’s beating again.
slowly and steady at first,
but it grows stronger in fluttery beats every second.

the moment you came into my life,
you immediately become my strength.
my peace.
my armor.
my weapon, a sling for my stone, an arrow for my bow.
at the same time, you also taught me how to stand up for my self,
and now i begin to learn how to use my own swords.

so thank you.
thank you, thank you, thank you.
thank you for always being by my side as we keep entangling the life lessons that we need to learn together.
thank you for opening my eyes and making me realize,
that even though the sky isn’t always blue and bright and beautiful all the time,
the sun will always keep on rising.
the road ahead of us might gonna be rougher and the journey might get tougher,
but as long as we’re walking side by side,
hand in hand,
i believe that we could fight against all the odds.
because that’s what we are and that’s what we do,
we never stop fighting.

— iii. i believe in us

now this thing has taken into another turmoil
and my blabbering perhaps ridicule you,
but what i want to say is,
i’d love to stay with you for another thousand years.
i’d love to go out on a picnic with you to see the clouds or trees or flowers,
or to feel the wind on our faces.
i’d love to go to the sea and bury our toes in the warm sand,
or to breathe in the salt air.
i’d love to stay with you,
i’d love to listen to the music of your heart beating against mine,
to tell each other’s stories and worries,
to walk under raining sprinkles or showering sun rays.

so just like what you’ve once said,
let’s dance all the dances that we will dance,
one at a time,
even if it’s a slow one,
let’s spend every beat of it together.

needless to say, the moon is beautiful tonight.
and i know that it will always be beautiful every other day, too.

happy january 17th the second.